The Darkness

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I swear I should start cutting myself!!! lol Blogger is retarded! It should have an undo button!! i just wrote this whole blog about how I'm feeling lately and shit... then when i was editing the HTML, I accidentally made a mistake in the HTML code and all the text was GONE! I guess I'll just have to start over.. if i can even remember what i said!

Well I was just saying Its 3:28am (was 2:40am when i started) and all I'm doin is listening to music and not talking to anyone online.. they just dont seem to be interesting anymore. I've been feeling like shit lately. Whenever I would chat on msn with someone, the conversation would last around 5min then just die out, and i know its my fault... I'm just not the same as be4.. and I'm pretty sure, well hoping this is just a phase cuz I've gone though this be4... there was one week last december when I didnt talk to any of my closest friends at skewl for no reason.. just cuz I didnt feel like it... Not because i wanted to be a bitch, but i just felt like crap and didnt have any patients for anyone or anything.

I've been in this "state" for around 2 weeks now... but i've been falling into it for around a month now, I've just been distancing myself from everyone around me... at skewl I used to be the center of attention.. now i just sit back and listen.. well pretend to listen to what the people around me are saying.

I'm starting to stress out about the upcoming final exams... and my mom's nagging about me studying isnt helping at all! I have a week off right now, but cant go out since the exams start may 20th and end may 30th... But I'm pretty excited about school finally ending!

So dont expect any new blogs over the next 2 weeks since all I'll probably be doing is studying and doing my exams... But if something come up that worth writing about, you can be sure that I'd blog about it :)

P.S: The comment about me cutting myself was a joke! I'm not emo lol, and i really think cutting is the stupidest thing anyone can do... pointless and stupid! DIE EMO DIE!